Fearful Thoughts About Coming to China Continued…
When people are constantly telling you things like this, it begins to cause fear to set in. When your life is going to be under complete surveillance, it cause your to act different. Especially when the next thing happens:
A guy calls my sending church and spoke with my pastor about me. He claimed that he worked in Washington DC for the government. He knew through some special intelligence that the Chinese Government was downloading information from google and they would have all my information because of my website. This would prevent me from going to China etc. Of course, he wouldn’t give all of his details, since the information he was sharing, he wasn’t suppose to be sharing. Weird!
Another story I remember from deputation went like this: I was at a church and a man started to share some top-secret information with me. He was nervously looking around the room to make sure no one else could hear him as he whispered to me about a ministry that was in China. He wasn’t suppose to tell anyone but thought the information might help me. He was obviously very nervous about the information and how top-secret it was. The fear factor was taking over and he wasn’t going to or even apart of the ministry in China.
There are so many other stories and things that have happened. But we are in China now, learning the language, and seeing God do great things. The stories haven’t stopped (though almost all of what we were told can be easily debunked). People are still saying many of the same things and even more so. People are still talking to us in code over the phone, email and in person. Some act as if you should take extreme caution in who you witness to and invite to church. But for us things have been different. We have been able to work with a team who wants to see God do great things and who are boldly living out the Gospel. We have been less fearful since coming to China, but we still have to keep a handle on fear and not let it creep into our lives. I read this quote the other day on twitter which said:
“Boldness isn’t about being comfortable with what’s outside of me, but being propelled by the grace and power of the One who lives inside me.” via @PaulTripp
Hearing all these stories and everything people told us didn’t cause us to be comfortable but very uncomfortable. But we can keep going forward because of being propelled by the grace and power of Jesus who lives inside us!
The same day I read this quote from the World Evangelism Quote of the Day by Hudson Taylor:
“China is not to be won for Christ by quiet, ease-loving men and women. The stamp of men and women we need is such as will put Jesus, China, [and] souls first and foremost in everything and at every time–even life itself must be secondary.“
At the end of the day, we are missionaries serving in communist China. We didn’t sign up for an easy job. Persecution is something that we might have to face one day, but we aren’t going to live in fear to avoid it… “We’re missionaries, it’s an occupational hazard.”